Besties...

One year ago this weekend I was with my 3 best girlfriends in St. Louis! We had a great time and hadn't been together just for a relaxing weekend in a long time! We were all in each others weddings over the last 4 years but it hadn't been just the 4 of us for a long time! Going into the weekend I knew that 2 of them were pregnant, one was about 6 1/2 months along and the other was about 4 months along (if I remember correctly!). I knew the 3rd was about to be pregnant soon and of course she announced to us that weekend that she was pregnant as well! :)

I can't lie and say that I was thrilled to be rooming with 3 pregnant women for a weekend, now I'm not saying that I wasn't super excited for all 3 of them, it was just a difficult time for me at first. As the weekend went I realized how awesome these women are and how lucky their kids will be to have them as mothers! I'm glad I was the last to get pregnant... now I have 3 amazing sources to turn to :). I do find it rather amusing that all 4 of us will have had a baby within a year of each other! (Well, one already has a beautiful 4 year old, she was already onto kid #2, but she was also the first to get married!)

I love those girls dearly and cherish the small amount of time we get to see other throughout the years... I think it will be a while before we get a "girls" weekend only again!

I think that weekend last year was really the start of a breakthrough for me.



Jeremy and I hadn't fully discussed when exactly we wanted to have kids. We knew we wanted kids but it was more of a "if it happens, it happens, if it doesn't, it doesn't." And I kept telling myself I was okay with that. It wasn't until October after the Faith Women's retreat (when I again roomed with 3 pregnant women, not the same ones, but 3 of my very close friends that live here in Indy) with my church that I truly gave my desire to be pregnant up to God. I knew that I couldn't do it anymore, that I had to trust Him that it would come in His timing. And of course, 2 months later, God's timing came. I still remember that night like it was yesterday, all the emotions that went through me after seeing the faint 2nd line on that stick!

All this to say I can't believe in 8 weeks (or when she decides to come out!) that I will be holding a beautiful little girl in my arms!!

31 Weeks!!

Oops... so once again I'm not so good at this blogging business!!

Wow, I can't believe there are only 9 weeks (give or take) left until I meet my baby girl!!! Right now I am way more excited than I am nervous or scared about anything! This week she has been like a whole new baby just bouncing around inside my belly which is such a great feeling! She was so quite at first and it made me nervous so many times, but I love feeling her move around (except when I have to use the restroom and she's using my bladder as a punching bag!).

The doctor's visits have been going great and we are going every 2 weeks now. I have the next 3 appointments made and then it's weekly after that!! I really thought that by this point I would be freaking out about labor and giving birth, but I'm just so excited. Jeremy plays such a big role in that because he keeps telling me how excited he is to meet Paige! I love that he is so excited to be a dad and I know he's going to be a great one!

We had our first baby shower last week at work and I felt so blessed and was overwhelmed by the gifts my co-workers gave us! I have another one in Huntington tomorrow and one in Indianapolis the following weekend! Then July will be a busy month of finishing up the nursery and getting the things that we still need! Then August will be here!!!! :)

21 Weeks

Wow... these last three weeks have gone by so quickly! I am currently in a transition process at work. I've just been promoted to Research Coordinator and have some pretty big shoes to fill! So far it's okay, it's an adjustment, learning how to supervise and how to use the right words when talking to my research assistants. I know I've already messed up once, I should have waited until I had the correct words to say before speaking instead of fumbling through my words. And I should have looked at the scenario from different points of view. I already feel like I've learned a lot this week.

As far as baby stuff goes... my little girl is doing good, at least as far as I know. I wish she would start kicking me a little more, I'd like to feel her moving around, but I think she's a little shy (of course as I'm writing this she has decided to start kicking me :) ). I'm definitely learning to be more patient and trust God that she is there and she is fine. I'm excited to go to the doctor again in a week and a half just to hear her heartbeat again :).

We are getting so excited! Jeremy is noticing how "big" I'm getting and I think that makes him more excited for her to come! We were walking around Wal-Mart the other day and he said something along the lines of "I'm sorry she's not here yet." Which I thought was cute but at the same time I'm thinking... I'm not ready for her yet!!

But it is amazing how much you can love someone before you meet them!

18 Weeks

Yes... I know I'm a few days behind... but then again I know at least one of my readers was in the hospital because she just had a baby and probably hasn't had time to get on here anyway.. yay and Congrats Krista! She is so beautiful! And to those other 4 (that may be a stretch) readers I apologize if you were anxiously awaiting an update on my pregnancy, though I highly doubt you were :).

There really wasn't anything too exciting going on, I was hungry a lot last week, it came to a screeching halt on Saturday evening when I felt like my stomach was about to explode from eating too much. I felt so bad that I actually called Jeremy and asked him to come home early from Carrabba's because I didn't want to be alone. But then I was fine on Sunday and able to enjoy my dad's spectacularly amazing Fried Rice (I've tried to duplicate it, but even my husband enjoys my dad's more).

3 more days until we find out the gender of Baby Montz. I'm still waiting for that first kick, punch, or somersault which I possibly could have felt already and I'm just not aware of it. Oh well! I'm sure I'll get my confirmation that he or she is moving around when we get to see him or her again on Thursday!

17 Weeks

I often times feel like I have skipped a couple weeks of pregnancy... Probably because I want to be farther along than I actually am! Yes i know people say it goes by so quickly and I should enjoy, well I am not a patient person... When I know something is happening in the future it's all I can think about! But nevertheless I am at 17 weeks...

I had a great conversation this week with a friend who is pregnant, we were talking about the insecurities of pregnancy that people really just don't tell you about. For example, my friend is still in her first trimester which is the part where you worry about miscarriages and you pay careful attention to every new feeling in belly area, every movement can make your mind wonder what's happening down there and there is the waiting for that first appointment to see your baby and hear the heartbeat! For me I am at the point where I know the first movement is coming so I am anticipating it and probably thinking too much about it! Then when I feel that first movement I fear that I will be trying to feel every single movement after that and stressing myself out when I don't feel it! I am also at the point of starting to really show, but the insecurity there is that people that don't know I'm pregnant may just thing I'm overweight!! I feel that way sometimes too! I know i need to enjoy these changes because this should be a very enjoyable part of life, I just didn't expect to feel this way!

Our next appoint is 12 days away and we get to start calling baby Montz him or her!! I'm so excited to see my baby again and hear the heart beat... It just calms me down!

Through all the insecurities though I have to remember that God is charge, He knows every detail about this little baby and he is watching over it!!

16 weeks...

I'm not good at blogging... I've tried many times and failed many times... so I'm not sure if this will stick, but let's give it a whirl!!

I am now 16 weeks preggo!! 4 months down, it's crazy to think! There are still many days when I do not 'feel' pregnant, I wish I could hear the heart beat every week! My regular pants are definitely in their last stages, I may be able to get another week or so out of them... mom and I are going outlet shopping on the 26th, but I may have to figure out something before then!

Only 20 more days until we find out the gender of baby Montz!! We do already have names picked out... if it's a boy his name will be Vincent Edmond. Jeremy has said ever since we got married that he likes names that start with 'V' and Vincent was the only boys name that I liked so that's where Vincent came from and Edmond was my grandfathers name. He passed away in 2005 a month before my college graduation. We want his name to live on through our little one if the Lord blesses us with a boy!
If it's a girl, right now we are settled on the name Makayla Paige. No really rhyme or reason behind that one! Just something we both liked... although it took a few days for Jeremy to get on board with the name Paige! The girls name has actually changed about 3 times... so we'll see what happens!

Tomorrow Jeremy and I are going to our first board gaming convention called Indycon. It's just a local one, but we are both excited to go play games with friends all day!

That's all I've got for now... like I said, we'll see how this goes for the next 5 months!

Oops...

Okay so I may have missed a few weeks... maybe like 12... but I still have not given up. Things are going okay... my new job is going great now, I've really been enjoying it and learning a bunch. My routine is still a work in progress but coming along much better here over the last two weeks.

So to give you a quick update...
- I have been going to a small group from our church that my friends have been trying to get us to go to for months! Time finally opened up and we have been going through a Crown Financial Study which has been fantastic! It has really opened my eyes to how much money I have been wasting and how much more needs to be going to the Lord!
- I have very slowly been reading Knowing God and it has been good. It's opening my eyes to God's glory and holiness and who He is. I have been struggling a lot lately with who exactly God is and my wonderful friend Kara brought to my attention that if I want to know who God is I have to go back to the Gospel!
- I have also recently started reading The Gospel for Real Life and I am onto chapter 3. This book is great because it puts things in words I can understand. Now, I may have a Masters degree but my vocabulary isn't great and I can easily get lost in big words and theological terms! So even though I have to read a paragraph more than once sometimes it's usually because my mind started thinking about something else as I was reading and not because of the words the author uses!! Now if I could just figure out how to read without my mind thinking about other things!!
- I've been reading about 5 out 7 days of the week and have tremendously cut back my TV time!!

- A friend of mine recently completed Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred and she enjoyed it. She talked about how great it was because it had 3 different levels and the flow of it went well. So I thought I would give it a shot.. I have had it for 2 weeks now and I believe I have completed 9 or 10 days of it. There are some days I just can't get to it like on Monday's when I leave the house at 6:30am and don't get home until 10:00pm! But I have enjoyed it and I can feel myself getting stronger... but I'm still only on Level 1! I'm not quite ready for Level 2 yet!

- My husband is amazing! He started a new job in April and has been doing great!! The hours that he has have been great for us because they are allowing us to spend more time together than we are used to! Last night he wanted to go for some coffee, so we left and got our coffee then he just wanted to drive around! We finally found the entrance to the state park (after living in this neighborhood for almost a year we found out that it was only about 3 miles from our house!)! I am so excited that we found this because I have been wanting to go... we didn't go in last night because it was already 8:00pm and we didn't want to pay the $5 to go in for only an hour. So we started driving again... now usually I am one that always has to know where we are going or what he is doing... I can't just sit and let him take control sometimes, but last night I was just going with the flow and he took me to Dave and Buster's to play some games!! It was sooooooo much fun! We played one of the games that you have to hit a button and if you land on the jackpot you get however many tickets it says... well we hit the jackpot! It was 138 tickets... I played the first time and it landed on 10 tickets and Jeremy told me to close my eyes and he would tell me when to stop and I did and we won! It was hilarious!

Anyway... those are the updates over the last 3 months... hope to update it more often!