One year ago this weekend I was with my 3 best girlfriends in St. Louis! We had a great time and hadn't been together just for a relaxing weekend in a long time! We were all in each others weddings over the last 4 years but it hadn't been just the 4 of us for a long time! Going into the weekend I knew that 2 of them were pregnant, one was about 6 1/2 months along and the other was about 4 months along (if I remember correctly!). I knew the 3rd was about to be pregnant soon and of course she announced to us that weekend that she was pregnant as well! :)
I can't lie and say that I was thrilled to be rooming with 3 pregnant women for a weekend, now I'm not saying that I wasn't super excited for all 3 of them, it was just a difficult time for me at first. As the weekend went I realized how awesome these women are and how lucky their kids will be to have them as mothers! I'm glad I was the last to get pregnant... now I have 3 amazing sources to turn to :). I do find it rather amusing that all 4 of us will have had a baby within a year of each other! (Well, one already has a beautiful 4 year old, she was already onto kid #2, but she was also the first to get married!)
I think that weekend last year was really the start of a breakthrough for me.
Jeremy and I hadn't fully discussed when exactly we wanted to have kids. We knew we wanted kids but it was more of a "if it happens, it happens, if it doesn't, it doesn't." And I kept telling myself I was okay with that. It wasn't until October after the Faith Women's retreat (when I again roomed with 3 pregnant women, not the same ones, but 3 of my very close friends that live here in Indy) with my church that I truly gave my desire to be pregnant up to God. I knew that I couldn't do it anymore, that I had to trust Him that it would come in His timing. And of course, 2 months later, God's timing came. I still remember that night like it was yesterday, all the emotions that went through me after seeing the faint 2nd line on that stick!
All this to say I can't believe in 8 weeks (or when she decides to come out!) that I will be holding a beautiful little girl in my arms!!